Thursday, June 02, 2005
i'll jux come straight to the point for the purpose of this entry. next time if any of you are pissed off at me, please tell me straight to the face. don't act like its no big deal and kept the anger within yourself. because if you do so, i wouldn't know that you are angry with me! and then without giving a explanation of what happened, you jux shut me out. i dun think that's very fair.
it could do so much better if you could jux insist to play today and remind me that it was a promise to you. u knew, i would definitely agree too meet. but why do you sound so casual when you told me? and i really thought it didnt bother you very much because you were wanting to go back home to sleep. well, after a long day of school who wouldn't be tired? and so i thought you were cool with it. cause to me you really sounded like you-dun-wan-to-play-today-also-good-den-i-can-go-home-and-sleep to me. it didnt occurred to me that you WERE angry.
i had wanted to meet you for bball again, even though i was already tired. but my cousin was with me, and she didnt wanted to play. couldn't expect me to leave her on her own and go on with my own stuff right. whats more she didnt know the way out of SP. but if you had really insisted to meet, i would have met up with you still! i would have lead her outta SP and waited for my fren to pass me the ball before meeting up with you! right, i'm not saying its your fault. jux hope that next time you can jux tell me straight. if not i wouldn't know it bothered you so much!
you know it pretty much hurts when you say that i went on to play with my NEW friends and didnt bother about you? i'm not saying that you cannot be jealous, but i jux hope that you can see that i did try to meet up with you guys. everytime you wanted to go to town, no matter for shopping, dinner, buying phone, presents or jux slacking away, i had been accompanying you. be it a last minute decision or a moment's impulse, i had been your faithful companion. now are you trying to say i haven't set out time for you? and that i've been too busy with my new friends that i didn't bother to hang out with you? i hope you don't think so! jux wanted you to know all my friends are important to me. especially you. i do cherish you even though i don't show it on the face.
jux be a little more tolerant about me. humans doesn't always think alike. i can't read your mind. neither can you read mine. i know i stood you up this time. but think back, haven't you stood me up too? and i've jux laughed it off, 'threatening' that i'll sell you to abu next time or whatever and no hard feelings.
i jux think there shouldn't this problem between the 2 of us, given how close we are. and i hope that if you are unhappy with me, you can jux tell me, so that i can give you and myself an explanation. isn't better this way? rather than me finding out later in your blog that you're pissed with me? i had rather we had it openly, and talks about it. that'll be the way to closer ties.
sorry...
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
