Wednesday, July 27, 2005
in town with clarise again!
we were bored,
while waiting for the train.
so we took this
=)
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
Love
love is a haunting melody
that i have never mastered
and i fear i never will...
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
Sunday, July 24, 2005
why is my life in black n white?
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
Friday, July 22, 2005
this is the second last day before our one week holidays! cheers everyone! we'll just have to endure one more day of suffering in lectures and tutorials before we could be liberated! =Pp thats not exactly news to the ears. me, for instance, have been anticipating the arrival of the holidays! i sure do appreciate it, though its only a short period of one week. its time to rest! time to get some fun, after sacrificing so many hours for school and devoting so many hours on projects! we truly deserved the short break! so don't expect me to mug mug mug in the holidays! a big NO! =D
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
Thursday, July 21, 2005
went for third cello practice today! whee! it was great. [economist would say]: but at a opportunity cost of going home and sleep. haha, whatever! =Pp we learnt the playing of notes of different counts for open strings. my thumb hurts!! its actually not easy to play a cello! in comparison, where does the piano stand!? [ps: i don't mean to critize a pianist or the instrument. i love piano too! just that cello's much more diff as compared to piano.] omg. it takes strength, perserverance and passion to master the playing of cello!
played accompaniment with my instructor today. OMGOMG!!! the melody flow was so wonderful! like the smooth flowing of a river across a plain grassland. OMG!! the music of two cello was just too beautiful. oh i'm falling in love with cello playing! ^v^ V
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
omg! i think i gonna flunk my statistics test! well, i'm a goner! i totally suck at stats. don't have the tiniest idea what the paper's talking about! i was like, flipping and flipping, all the way from page 1 to the last page! and i don't have the slightest idea of where should i start! but well, its the same, since there's nothing i understand! the paper seems like some kinda invisible drug, that makes me drowsy after browsing. i started writing half-heartedly, dozing off every few mins and waking up to find some unrelated words like 'taxi' etc etc in my answer. LOL! it was the most horrible test i've ever took. and i think i'm the most horrible student the teacher had ever taught! -_-" i hate stats to the core!!
luckily there's something for me to look forward to. clarise got us some tickets to jj's mini concert at ngee ann poly. can you imagine wanteng's excitement upon hearing my news?! lol! she was skipping when i told her that!
the concert was damn nice. pretty humorous too! haha! don't ask me why! its just laughable! =D before the concert, i don't really notice about jj. just know that he's a local singer and has some rather nice songs composed by himself, thats all. i don't understand why so many girls went gaga over him. i mean, he's not really that good looking or what. well, the answer was slapped into my face tonight. he's cute! haha! a typical simple, dimpled guy! lols! guess it all boils down to the charisma around him => he sang [yi qian nian yi hou] and the whole convention hall swoon! haha! and the funniest part was when he hugged some of his fans, wanteng went "BU GONG PING!!! [UNFAIR]" very loudly. wahaha! she's damn jealous that her dearie got hugged by some other girls. lol! she looks murderous! =Pp but her wish were fulfilled when jj shook her hand during the autography session. haha! she was practically over the moon! oh the power of love! ^v^
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
wo yao xing fu!
where's my xing fu?
my xing fu dao me.
sadded.
the more you seek for it,
the more it runs away.
its a vicious cycle.
when you think you're getting nearer,
the further you'd be pushed away.
when you pin your hopes high,
they don't just fall.
some were granted,
others just dashed.
this cycle confuses us.
it makes us lose our confidence,
and grow into depression.
we started to doubt ourselves,
as to forward or retreat.
its always good to dream,
living in a fairytale.
how i wish i were,
for i'm sure i'll have,
a happy ending.
=<
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
Monday, July 18, 2005
went to junction8 to catch the superstars today. it was damn crowded! i've got a slight regret that i went. lol! the fans were totally mad! no idea what they're so high about! especially hagen's fans.(sorry peili i dun mean you =Pp) they were so rowdy, frantically waving hagen's posters around. a bit scary you know! well, the enjoyable part was that we got to see wei jian and leon in person! they were so cute! not forgetting sebast! he's getting more and more dashing! wahaha! too bad the superstars didnt really get to perform any songs. but anyway, i'll give my support to sebast, wei jian and leon! =)
after that, went to my boss' daughter's 1 month celebration at his house. he catered buffet for us. had my filling. the food was so nice! had some red wine and dessert wine. boss' dad kept on offering us more wine, making us drink quite alot! clarise was all red. kept on laughing by herself and calling me dave! >=( candy started to be very slow in her processing, wei ting seems so blur and i feel so hot (as in temperature! lols! dont think otherwise!) but we're not drunk, only clarise. =Pp luckily andrew (nono) as the mr-good-guy sent us all home.
home sweet home! =D
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
Sunday, July 17, 2005
just feel like blogging out some of the thoughts that ran through my mind today. went passed lots of bungalows along the way to media corp. they were majestic! yah. majestic's the word for those houses. i cannot believe how grand these houses can get. i remembered, there was this unit, which had a building of at least 4 storeys! there were all those winding staircases all over. one of the main building material was glass. which was part of the reason why the whole building had looked so magnificent! it was a scene which is only valid in fairy tales. the whole scenerio looks like some part out of [beauty and the beast].
i just couldn't take my eyes off that house.
a small voice in my head told myself that i'll give anything to live in a house like that. well. perhaps not everything. not my family, not my friends and not myself. other than that, anything, i could give anything to live in there.
its too much like a dream. a dream that hit me so severely, i started thinking. how does it feels like living in such a beautiful house? how does it feel like being rich? i wonder.
at this point of time, i cant help feeling envious of rich people. i know this shouldn't be the way to think. i'm not supposed to feel this way either. i'm supposed to feel contented for what i have. my family was considered an average. i had never gone hungry or what in this lifetime. and that was enough reason for me to feel happy. but why! i just have this undesirable thought: why isn't my family rich? if my family was filthy rich, i could have gotten everything i want! i would have lived in a ultra majestic house. i would have maids to serve me. i would have enjoyed life to the max! i would be treated like a princess! i could have gotten a car as a present on my 18th birthday!
but why isn't things as desired?? =(
***
once again, apologetic thoughts ran across my mind. why wasn't i contented with my life?! i'm sure my family did their best to provide for me. i hate myself. why do i have to think this way?! why cant i just be contented with what i have now?!
it remains a mystery to me...
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
realised about one thing. i never did mention that i volunteered in NDP 2005 as a motivator. haha! unbelievable right? yah i know. all thanks to zirong. hee. we got all the enthusiasms from him. =) i'm actually feeling downright patriotic now! i love singapore! i love NDP! i love the dance we're learning now! =D =D
went for NDP practice today. clarify all our doubts. learnt all our steps. now we're finally on track! hurray! hope there ain't more steps. we're getting pretty used to the sequence now. haha. =)
after practicing, we took bus 156 to media corp, with the intention of nabbing some tickets for [jue dui superstar]. however, sad case for us, the moronic receptionist at media corp just brush us away by telling us she had no idea where to get those tickets. she told us that media corp's not in charged of distributing the tickets and that the tickets were all given out to the sponsorers. omg. its so obvious that she's just trying to brush us away! argh~ was it because we were so badly dressed? well, thats because we had NPD practice earlier on! cant possibly expect us to wear make up or what right?! hais. so in the end, we didn't get any tickets! =(
sadz sadz sadz sadz sadz!!!!!
ps: to the peeps out there, just for your information, i'm not those kind of dumb fans who chase their idols around like people from asylum ok! i'm just being a little more enthusiastic about [project superstar] hee. =D
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
Thursday, July 14, 2005
accounts tutorial was cancelled today. hurray for us! we were supposed to attend an one hour econs lecture from nine to ten. instead, i slept through it. i just don't see the motivation for me wake up early just to attend a dumb econs lecture for one hour, and thats it, end of school. pretty dumb and a waste of my time. =Pp in the end i gave in to my laziness and skipped school today. whee!
it was already midday when i woke. =) received zilin's message, telling me that she's on her way to douby ghaut to meet sharon, irene, xinhui and wan teng. they were going for a job interview later in the evening.
joined them at plaza singapura. we shopped around gasping at sales items like a bunch of aunties. lol! i'm craving for clothes from ebase! argh! but like what i said in my previous entry, i'm very broke! sob sob!
we headed to tanjong pagar for the job interview. to my utmost horror, it was an interview conducted by DW HOLDINGS!!! yes! DW HOLDINGS! the extremely scary company which i went before, whereby they force us to attend tours around the company, long boring meaningless talks and videos about their CEOs and their FERRARIS!! scary! even after i rejected their job offer, they continued to pester and bug me to go back with phone calls! whats more scarier, ever since that interview, however different number in the straits time 'recruits' i dialled, it somehow linked back to an interview at apex tower, where DW HOLDINGS is located!! it totally freaked me out 6 months ago!
unexpectedly, after a period of 6 months, i'm somehow brought back to DW holdings. seems like its fate! and since i'm broke, in need to cash, well, why not. so once again, i stepped into the building which i assured myself not to associate with 6 months ago -- apex tower.
however, this time, i'm backed, holding the position of an interviewee for market surveyor. haha! to my astonishment, it was pretty different this time. the interview was a rather enjoyable one. casual, i would call it. but too bad we weren't made to see videos about ferraris *with sarcarsim* ;) its more like a session of friends-making rather than interview to be frank. haha! zilin and i were called for interview first. i seriously suspect that this was due that our previous records were still in DW holdings system! lols! we went in and were greeted by the director of dimension, who were in his twenties. it really amazes me that the directors and managers in DW holdings were all so young! pretty unbelievable yet applaudable! the director's name was jeff, 23 this year. and the most important thing was that; he looked like xiao zhu! haha! his hairstyle reminds me of Ben in the old boy band A1 though. lols! he's damn funny. humorous, yet describes himself as a very violent and hot tempered person. throughout the whole interview, he kept on assuring zilin and i that he's very violent. -_-"
when we finally finished our interview, we proceeded outside, and continue crapping with everyone in the office. we've grown to be extreme sociable! hahaha! made friends with everyone in the office, and we even level up to gossiping! there's jamie, who's very bubbley and cute! she's "very us"! noisy, sociable and fun! heex. pei pei, who looks very serious at first glance but can be very fun when it comes to gossiping. arron, who is 18 but looks like 32! haha! =Pp he plays basketball in the west, quotes that 'you don't have to be tall to play basketball'. muahaha! bunch of interesting people i would say. =) arron showed us a video clip of jeff singing. not bad i must say. haha. but still lose out to sebast, weijian and leon's voice. heex!
argh! just watched jue dui superstar. sadded! no mood to blog now! >=( my favourite trio all out! =( sebast-weijian-leon. the judges are blind! so mean of them to make such sarcastic comments about sebast! you sucks! sebast rocks! hmph!!~ hope the trio dont give up and continue to work hard! fight for the revival round! sebast-weijian-leon i'll continue to support you guys! JIA YOU!!! =D you guys are my superstars!! =>
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
met up with wan today. haven't seen her for ages! omg! i missed her! i screamed so loud when i spot her on the over head bridge linking to dover mrt station that everybody turned to me. haha! just couldn't contain the excitement upon seeing wan again after for what seems like years! => i gave her a bear hug! ah! i could feel tears welling up in my eyes! we reunites! =D
we headed to bugis! everything seems to go back to the good old times! all the memories we held in lower sec seems to refresh itself! every little details were replayed so vivdly in our mind! oh it definitely feels good! we chatted non-stop while we travel. busy updating each other with our recent life and gossiping our way. =) wan hasn't change a bit! haha! still the same old lovable yu wan wan (fishy boney) that i know, who is fierce, talks with exaggerating actions, and loves majong! ahaha! we went for the session of sushi buffet which we and planned decades ago! => ps: i nearly got dragged to have seoul garden! help!! like usual, wan tried to force the crabby eggs down me! however, with great determination, strong mentality and high resistance, i stand firmed on my ground and rejcted her offer! muahaha! [have to make it sounds exaggerating =Pp]
after that, we roamed bugis street, looking out for potential purchases. well, we were only window shopping. pretty broke this week >.< *double sighs* in the end, we just bought some accessories to kill the burning sensation of wanting to spend money! haha! otherwise it defeats the purpose of shopping right! =)
we went home around six plus. tired, but contented! =) once again, thanks wan for the enjoyable day! ^^v
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
i sinned!!!!! just came back from a sumptuous dinner not long ago. we had cold soba, agedashi tofu, raw tuna, fried scallops from sushi tei and vanilla waffle ice-cream from haagen daaz! yum! it all tasted so good that i had ignored the naggy words of: 'you're supposed to be dieting' at the back of my head. muahaha!
feeling so tired and drained! all thanks to that dumb ITAB CA1! its making me lose my head! i realised i dont know how to fully utilise microsoft word! fancy sitting infront of the comp for a full one and a half hour to do that stupid test! omg! *sighs* what a bloody waste of my time! its not as if i gonna need that skill in future! even if i happen to become some kinda boss or what, i could jolly well hire a professional computing designer to do the job! i dont see the need for me to do it myself >=( whats more, staring at the computer for such a lengthy period of one and a half hour has absolute hazards to my eye sight! i thought it was adviced that we should rest our eyes every 45 minutes of using the computer. so why are we having IT lessons of THREE HOURS every tuesday?! doesn't this highlight the contradiction of the arrangement of the school modules and our health values? in this case, i suggest, to the benefit of the school as well as the student bodies, for IT lessons to be removed from our core modules!
I HATE ITAB!!! =<
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
me and clarise
me and clarise at pioneer mall's mac,
studying for term tests.
we were so not-in-the-study mood that
we picked up our handphones,
and started taking pictures!
speak about narcissism! =Pp
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
ahaha!! just received a file from clarise.. its was none other than our very own giant poster!(felt like printing it out! =X) advertising ourselves! trust her to come up with something like this! i'll try to attach the file here so as to give you guys a treat to her master piece.. => wonder how much time had she used to compile that! great work though, clarise.. thats a compliment! *winks*
ps : i can't attach the file here! sad case for you guys.. well, if you're interested in what she has created, message me.. i'll send it to you through msn or email.. =) chills!
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
Sunday, July 10, 2005
hii! i'm backed! hahaha! haven been updating my blog! sorrie pals.. heex.. i'm kinda lazy!
ahh! i'm so drained this few days! can feel the energy bar within me getting lower and lower.. yah.. i'm suffering from lack of TLC (tendering love care) disease.. thanks clarise, my beloved banana in pyjamas [B2]=Pp
i'm jux so tired! with heaps of tests, project works and tutorials coming up, i'm assure myself that i'm at the stage where i'm about to pull out my hairs!
life seems to move on rapidly.. its already week 6 or 7 i cant remember! and poly life's like lacking something! we havent been able to interact with other students from other courses! and its like limitating our social circle of friends! this totally defeats the purpose of us coming to poly! which is to gather and make more friends and to brew joy and conjure laughters! ahh!
life is going on black and white for me. i seriously need some quick entertainment before i go bonkers! =<
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
Monday, July 04, 2005
the clock strucks one
midnight came
quietly, silently
here i sat
all alone
staring ahead
into nothingness
i thought i saw it
the next moment it was gone
emptiness overwhelmed me
i thought i dun belong
thats a world
different from mine
fitting in was tough
at least for me
no matter hard i tried
i couldn't resist,
shutting myself off
perhaps i was conscious
but i had the valid reasons
for it was me all alone
which no cliques could swallow
but yet it contradicts
as to leave or put
i sure do like your world
just too bad i dun belong
i cant con myself
i cant con my heart
its a long dream to pursue
to stay put or not
its the matters of my heart
anyone? just anyone.. anyone will do.................................................
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
