Tuesday, July 03, 2007
heard about a bad news of a friend.
kinda make me enter a contemplative mood.
the fragility of life.
condolence, my friend.
it was so sudden and unexpected.
your loved one might have left you.
but the love never goes away.
deep down you know that he'll always be there for you.
watching over you.
and i know you'll be strong.
it kinda hit me hard in the face, how unpredictable life is.
one moment you might be so full of life, and the next moment...
life is so fragile, who knows that jogging in the park has the danger of being killed by a falling tree?
and who knows that running a race has the danger of your heart failing you?
who knows that sleeping in a camp has the danger of getting killed by a crashing helicopter?
no one knows.
its sad how people cant predict which is the moment they are going to die.
even sadder to think that they're leaving this world with so many tasks undone.
had they know they were going to die, things would've been different.
all the tasks and dreams they have yet to accomplish, their loved ones which they have yet to bid goodbye to...
its heart-wrenching to know that you missed the last chance to say goodbye to your loved ones.
it just struck me, how many times have i actually told my mum, my dad and my bro that i loved them?
never. i was brought to the fact that i never once told them i loved them.
i just couldnt bring myself to say that, it just wasnt in the family tradition.
but what if? what if one day i missed the chance of telling them so?
and how many times have i actually hugged my loved ones?
never.
so what if one day i missed the chance to hug them, to feel their warmth against me?
will it all be too late then?
would they ever know that i really wanted to hug them and tell them that i loved them?
18 years of my life, i've been searching high and low for that happiness that would belong to me. now then it occurs to me, how come i never did look back?
the happiness that has been following me all along - the unconditional love from my family.
i'm so fortunate that i have them with me.
for i know no matter what right or wrong i do, you will never give me up.
to mum, dad and bro :
love you always.
..xin fu cong lai dou bu xu yuan wo` ;
